January 21, 2014

I’m not sure if this is gonna work out, but I’m in love with how I feel with you.

January 6, 2014

There’s not much to say other than I’ve been cooped up in this house since Friday and I need to go out and see people again, It’s becoming depressing. Fucking snow. I’ve been spending my days catching up on UK Skins, telling Nicole how I can’t quit thinking about Jacob and watching “Confessions Of A Teenage Drama Queen”, “The Perks” and “Mean Girls”, fantasic, huh?

It’s not glamorous, but it’s what it’s consisted of. I sorta wanna get back to school, but I’m also loving sleeping in.

January 5, 2014

I’ve become quite the cook around my house this weekend after I got to feeling better. Moms been gone for work since Friday night and comes home tonight (thank god, I’ve missed her) and I’ve become basically the house wife around here. It’s not bad though, it reminds me of when I was real little and my brother and I would be home alone for hours on end after school.
I hit a rough patch the other night, but I’m getting over it because I know in the back of my mind it doesn’t mean a whole lot to me anymore.
I guess on Wednesday we go back to school? I’m just ready to see Jacob again. I’ve missed him all break

January 4,2014

I’m stuck home from work because I’m sick today, and because though I’m sure hearing the symphony of vomit and shit sounds is probably your idea of fun, I decided to tell you another story.

This is the story of how a year long relationship went sour. A story not too many people know of.

October 23,2012 marked the day Sean and I had begun our “relationship”, the longest I had ever experienced and by far the most advanced. Never before him had I truly thought I was in love with someone, never had I ever been fully sexual with another human. I was completely vulnerable in this case. I thought this would be the one; a naive thought when I look back now. In a sense, I did love him more than I had loved another person, but in another I had never been so hurt. We were consistently off and on in our “relationship” because he was busy with his band or he wouldn’t talk to me for 3 months at a time. It all sounds so stupid and really I should have left him far before I did. There were several times I had realized he was lying to me or that he was talking to other girls. I knew the whole time, but you know how it is; you lie to yourself to keep from getting hurt. We’d had our share of fights and we had our share of overly publicized “loving.” Allow me to make that last part clear, whenever we had sex, it was in the backseat of a car in a park. Classy, huh? Oh and just for the record, this turd is who I had lost my virginity to. I guess it took me a year and nearly two months to realize that he was the reason I never felt like I was absolutely complete. 

It’s all okay at this point in time, I’m working on getting into a relationship with someone who probably doesn’t think much more of me than just a friend, but I need to take a chance with someone I know who wouldn’t treat me like shit.

You were right all along, Tuscan. You were right.

January 3, 2014

Let me tell you the story of a girl who’s struggled with weight problems from day one. I’ve always been one to lean on the chunky side of life and never be able to keep a constant weight. I hadn’t felt “fat” since I had broken up with my boyfriend and I needed to go buy pants (something that doesn’t exactly come easy.) I hadn’t noticed I was gaining weight while we were dating or really much after I’d left him until today while I was out shopping. I must have gained at least 20 lbs over night or something because my regular sizes weren’t fitting like they used to. I felt like crying. But what am I supposed to do? Cry and never do anything about it? I guess I could become more active; it’s not like I don’t have the time for it. Zumba and a strict diet are what my new life will be consisting of i suppose. Really hope this works.

January 2, 2014

Sick. Sick. Sick and snow.
I started out the day with seeing this shit storm of white when ol bitch woke me up and she made me some breakfast c:
I took a nap later in the day and woke up sick with a sinus infection just to see it was still snowing. As I type this out bae bae bae is in the kitchen makin us some garlic chicken to calm down our sicknesses. Hope tomorrow isn’t as shitty and were not so sick.
Goodnight everyone.

January 1, 2014

I guess is as formal of a beginning as we can have when it gets to a “personal” blog on tumblr. So hey.

I guess it goes like this, I’m an 18 year old girl living in a shit sack for a town and this is my life. happy and sad on separate occasions and that’s okay with me. There’s not much to say for today minus what /i’m doing so bear with me and learn a little. Sit back, grab some popcorn and have fun y’all!

I won’t bore you to death much longer. Today I’m just staring the year out with my bffl wyfe 4 lyfe. Can you hear the craft shopping yet? Slumber party pictures are sure to come.

Goodnight everyone! <3